This seems to be a sign people see at Christmas, when a miracle needs to happen at a sporting event, or maybe during a traumatic time of life. For many, it is a reminder that through everything that is happening, something wonderful will come from it. The “believe” part is a reminder for most.
For me, it seems to be a foreshadowing. I know. Ridiculous, right?
I always see this word in the most random and unexpected time right before a change happens. I just connected this yesterday.
During my search for a clinical fellowship, I saw this before an interview that went well from the interviewers perspective, but I didn’t feel I belonged there. I also saw this in stores, in people’s homes, and other places during my last year of grad school….trying to figure out moving, a job, and everything else.
Two days ago, I learned that I would not be able to attend orientation with my best friend as planned. We were both looking forward to “orienting” to our hospitals together in this new place. Three days ago we were shopping and ended up at a random K-Mart (don’t even ask) and I saw a candle with “believe” on it tucked away in the back of a shelf. I smiled when I saw it and thought, “yep, everything’s good.”
And then a day later, BHAM. Things changed. My clinical fellowship got complicated. and the list of things to worry about increased.
I soon realized that “believe” was a warning-like sign for me. Am I going to avoid all possible places this could be? I wanted to at that moment.
Maybe I need to stop thinking of it as a warning. Perhaps it is a reminder. I like to plan….so someone knows me well. I appreciate the reminders, but not the changes.
Next time you see “believe” - appreciate where you are in life and remember that although things change, it will all make sense someday. It is okay if it is not alright at the moment. Eventually, it will be.
You can’t control these things. Just believe.